Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. You say that like its a bad thing



Obsessive
Compulsive
Disorder

Not too long ago I stood quietly in one of the major stores and watched, as a lady who did not work there, methodically arranged the items on the shelves. She began with the top shelf on the end, worked her way down to the bottom shelf and then moved to the next group. Slowly making her way down the aisle, lining the products up perfectly. I waited until she was far enough away I could remove the three products I needed and run. I knew the minute she noticed it would begin again. But the shelves looked great, the items were presented perfectly, I could easily get what I wanted, my eyes were drawn to the various products waiting my selection, it was perfect, right up until I made me selection, and ran.

I told that story once before and got into a lot of trouble with a friend who is OCD. They felt as if I were ridiculing the lady and I wasn't. They told me they were OCD and did not appreciate my sense of humor. I tried to tell them honestly, that I too am OCD and the last thing I was trying to do was make fun of the person. Did I smile and internally, shake my head? Yes, I actually did. But not because I thought it humorous, but because I could understand to a degree what she felt.

Being OCD is not always a bad thing. Those with OCD, most likely have nice, organized, and very clean homes. Their yards are probably immaculate, their tools in perfect alignment. Their cars kept in mint condition and parked perfectly.

When an OCD person goes shopping, some are probably like the person in the above story, others will place items in their cart just so, when it comes time to pay the items go on the conveyor a certain way, in bags a special way, and back in the cart in order according to preference.

Each step done in order, each action a precision movement meant to accomplish a task in a certain manner. Done in the exact same way, time after time, after time.

Many years ago my son was seeing a doctor, we thought he may have food allergies so the doctor instructed me to write down everything he consumed. when we returned for the next visit, I handed him the list. He asked what it was. I told him that it was the list of everything he had eaten. The doctor looked at the list, looked at me and asked if I ever did anything more than once. I admitted to returning to assure myself I had turned off the stove. That was when he diagnosed me as OCD. Okay fine, tell me something I don't know. While my level of OCD isn't debilitating, it can and does make things interesting- and frustrating- from time to time.

Take work. After twenty-five years on the job I know the procedures, the rules and the expectations. After twenty-five years I have lost count of how many times I've listened to the lectures on what is expected from each employee. I will admit that watching people doing things that are not following along with the set procedures makes me a varying level of stressed. But I'm learning.

While I obviously can only speak for myself, I'm realizing my that my level of OCD also has its good points. I do- to the best of my ability- everything in a certain order at work. When I do that, I accomplish more as I can see what I have and haven't finished. My job is somewhat organized and easily managed. I can do something there that I cannot do at home- find things. I know easily the passage of time with limited clock watching. I know what is going on so I can better explain to others what they need to know. Just to name a few things.

I have to admit that it took me a while to adjust to not being able to park in the exact same place every day as I had been doing. Parking in the same place, in the same direction, at the same time. Now I deliberately park in different parts of the parking area, in different directions. At first that ruined my days, now it stimulates the brain and makes me think, trying to remember where I last left the car.

Obsessive, Compulsive, Disorder.. is not always a bad thing. It can and does make life interesting. It can and does make work a challenge but also and adventure.

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